2004-04-10 - 01:21

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LOOK OUT dear readers, I'm rambling here.

The following is some brainstorming for myself, and I've chosen to not keep it as 'private' in case there's something in here which interests you.

In fact, I am including the latest updates HERE Sat 1:30 AM in case you feel drawn to contact me about any of this stuff.

Oh there 'R' so many things I want to write elaborate entries on!

So here's some of the general topics and I'll write more later.

I love being a feminine girlie female---how this is new to me---how I am embracing and nurturing this---some blathering on about the rewards of working with what we've got rather than fighting it---the career I might be heading towards as even more of a GHP---sex is f'ing great---some talk of how hanging out with people who veer towards what's wrong with others is very taxing to me---some talk of how the same people are inspiring to me to keep focusing on the positive in everyone---S, yes. PI, yes. Inc. foundation is being built to last!---synergy for you n me---what the fuck is happening with She Who Has Decided to be Cold and Unresponsive and was once so open Why it hurts, why it is okay---Why anger just doesn't work for me---it's SOOOo not about gender for me---spending and intimate evening with a couple in love had me thinking about being in a relationship---the following night spending some time around a couple fighting reinforcing my polyamourousness---ritual with others being powerful/empowering/synergetic and where to receive more experiences?---feeling guilt about not being more active with the Inc. and yet knowing that by not taking on too much will be able to endure over time---want to take lessons on some specific skills---craigslist ads---yoga---eating well---feelings of guilt for not keeping in touch with so many wonderful people I've been close to in the past but lately have become self-absorbed---feeling self-absorbed in a way that feels like I am being a neglectful friend--feeling self-absorbed in a way that feels like i am building a better me to give/share a better me to others

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